Survivor Impact Statement

KEITH OUELETTE 

[All text on this page is from Dick Nadeau’s ProjectTruth2 website.  This statement was apparently compiled by Keith Ouellette for the Criminial Injuries Compensation Board- date unknown but probaly sometime in the late 90s.  The introductory "Note" was written by Dick Nadeau. ]

Note: this survivor did not accede to Ken Seguin’s sexual wishes and had his probation revoked as a result. He was initially sent to the Ontario Correctional Institute then transferred to Millbrook.  He spent most of his time there (18 months) in solitary confinement where he was subjected to mind control experiments. He has done much research on the subject and the latest report by Margaret Somerville of McGill’s Allen Institute titled “A Report on Research on Inmates in Federal Penitentiaries” prepared for the Correctional Service of Canada, would confirm his experiences. By the mid-sixties, LSD had been used on over fourty thousand inmates and more than a thousand papers and a dozen books were written on the subject as well as six international conferences on the use of LSD on inmates had been convened. He was subjected to electric shock treatments as well and various forms of  disassociative therapies such as time dilation and time compression where one loses control of time and sleep while in solitary confinement. 

Survivor Impact Statement

KEITH OUELETTE 

As a direct result of the numerous sexual assaults by my brother (adoptive) and two government employees among others, mind manipulation conducted on myself by the Provincial Government, the then called Intelligence Branch of the R.C.M.P. via C.I.A. backed programs, wrongful incarceration, the aftermath of torture under the influence of L.S.D. 25 and possibly other drugs, and sensory, light and sleep deprivation. I can only state that I regret being born in a country where people’s rights and security are not only ignored but buried in a maelstrom of deceit, red tape, systematic discrediting and further abuse of the victim and his family, by the very body of institutions which are supposedly in place, to protect us.

The personal, professional, marital, parental, financial, psychological, emotional and physical losses I’ve incurred over my entire lifetime safe 3½ years of early childhood, have together, effectively rendered me permanently injured, for life. Interaction with anyone, any almost any medium is, virtually non-existent. Isolated, alone, without the dear family I used to have, again because of the effects of both sexual aggressions and mind manipulation, I suffered greatly to the point of wanting to take my life and up till very recently had attempted to do so on a regular basis since 1967.

My talents for photography, the arts, hairstyling and most disciplines of science, are rendered useless because, my behavior was misdiagnosed, misunderstood, thought to be a natural causes and even feared by all the people whom I’ve ever known.

To date, I’ve lost any and all jobs I’ve ever had, either because I could not complete my studies due to intrusive thoughts, or because I could not defend myself in courts, when accused of things I did not do or for things I would not do, even under threats or from a total sense of indifference and ignorance of all parties involved. This includes the Courts, Police, Doctors and Hospitals, Probation Officers, Manpower Counsellors, and our Governments. My wife left me after having to see me fall apart in front of her eyes, time after time. The same Children’s Aid Society which failed me when I was a young child, the same one which ignored me when I cried abuse, the one and same that took away my children which, I can only see under supervision although, I’ve done nothing but exhibit symptoms of imposed abuse. How? By reporting sexual and physical abuse and/or asking for their help or possible references if they could not help. The children are the only family I’ve ever known and learned to trust and love without reservation. Protecting them from society’s corrupt and perverse was rewarded with accusations without foundation and continued harassment without merit.

The financial losses due to potential jobs I would have otherwise had if, I’d been able to complete my courses in College and Universities which, I did want to complete if only for my own satisfaction.

The financial losses of all the jobs I would have kept if, I could have maintained some form of “normal functioning” under “normal circumstances”. Unfortunately for me, abuse prevented any hope of that happening. I worked with, as, or for, sculptors, artists, photographers, newspapers, promoters, playwrites, musicians, hairstylists, socialites, and many many mores professional trades. I take pride in what I do and, how I do it. To try to put a number on what it cost me to have been, as well as be, subjected to every imaginable and unimaginable form of human cruelty is, beyond my capabilities as, I could not arrive to it. It just cannot be tallied.

The psychological and emotional impact is, profound as well as equally prohibitive to my life. My entire existence is riddled with suffering that defies description.

The sleep disturbances, the memory problems associated with abuse, eating disorders, the depressions and suicidal ideations, other self destructive behaviours, all stem directly from sexual abuse and mind manipulation experimentation and from wrongful imprisonment. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, and the damage done through sensory deprivation, only confirms my need for adequate and competent medical help. The breaches of trust which occurred over the years have truly taken their toll on my psyche and unfortunately, my family and friends as well. I fear public places to the point of panic and never shop unless forced to by the only friend I have left. I worry about what is to become of my children, if I should succumb to still another crisis or symptom of abuse.

My physical health has been deteriorating as, I have muscle wasting and Temporal Manibular Joint Disorder due to not being able to eat. I am regularly going to hospitals for infections and for physiotherapy and once for being what appears to be a form of shock or catatonia in December 1999, at the (Glengarry Memorial Hospital) Alexandria, Ontario. I ache from the tensions and worries and am plagued with vicious headaches nervousness and anxiety. The normally prescribed medication usually compounds my problems as my body reacts paradoxically and adversely to the “normal” types of medications.

My reputation, my social and professional life, my relationship with family, friends or foes, my mental health, my entire existence and everything that I was/am, will never recover as, the systems in place are too ill-equipped to understand, let alone deal, with damages to my health.

I will never forget what my country and its people did to me. I will never forgive any of the injustices that were inflicted upon my person in contradiction of every human right guaranteed under the Canadian Constitution and The Nuremberg Human Experimentation Directives.

I was repeatedly ignored by local police, lawyers, courts and politicians who were in power when these abuses occurred. They were still in power when our government admitted to their wrongdoing, by compensating other victims of mind manipulation while, I was attempting to have some closure and perhaps obtain, competent assistance for my plight. I was discredited, ridiculed, nearly arrested and nearly incarcerated several times for simply seeking justice and, for trying to set the record straight. In more recent times, Kim Campbell, under the then Mulroney government, compensated some of the known victims but, the facts are that, the government attempted to block every attempt at litigation by the victims with their own forms of litigation and by stalling tactics. I am so very deeply offended and so marked by these past events to my person that, I am compelled by my morals to combat these engines of torture and deceit with whatever remains of my life and convictions.

I am still being obstructed by every venue or recourse. I’m told I have a right to, through proper litigation and, the reasons why, are very transparent. Control and power over innocent civilians and their zeal for keeping the tax paying masses confused so it may allow such covert acts to persist and continue to inflict a Orwellian Totalitarian Regime on an innocent and unsuspecting population. What has happened to our Country?

Keith Ouelette